Struggles

Anyways, family mine, I'm not doing a real group email, just to the fam-bam and a couple friends. I am at the temple this week and so I don't have a real pday, so I have to try and email during slow times, thus the group email. I'm going to try to respond to the individual emails you guys sent, but I'm sorry if I can't. 

So the temple. It's pretty special. We had Zone Conference yesterday and I sang in a musical number and arranged the other musical number. But one of the elders who is dying this transfer translated the hymn Let Zion in Her Beauty Rise, and I sang that. It was pretty beautiful. It was a quartet and all of the people there had lovely classical voices and I felt like I stopped the group from being better. But I am glad I got to be part of it. We had some really good training and the Spirit was killer strong. I got a lot of personal revelation.

Also, I know you already know, but my time in the MTC was really really difficult. Me and my companion there had a lot of issues. And so, since we have been out in the field, when we have to see each other, we don't talk. This has been wearing on my mind. And you are rarely companions with the same person twice, but I kept having this sinking feeling I was going to have to be her companion again some time in the mission. Yesterday, we were given time to sit on the grounds and just focus our thoughts on Him. It was dark and rainy, and I couldn't tell who anyone was. However, I looked over and saw Sorella Gisseman (my MTC comp) siting alone. I was hit with this immensely huge impression to go talk with her. I did not want to. I did not want to go near her. But I knew I needed to. So, I took a deep breath and went. I sat by her and asked to take a moment. I apologized for the rough times we had, how I thought she was a wonderful missionary and it was terrifying. But she said she had had the same thoughts and was planning to leave a note for me in the villa. She mentioned she knew she had issues with patience, and she was sorry for the MTC. She said she felt like we were going to be companions again, and she would love to go again and do it the right way. I shared I had similar impressions and things were solved. I have had things that were hard to forgive, but my time with her was REALLY hard, and I held a lot of resentment. However, last night, in front of the temple, all that melted away. I can not tell you how much weight was just gone. And now things are civil. We aren't best friends but it's a start. A good start to healing. We will see if we are ever actually companions again, but I hope God gives me a chance to do that over. Because, when I first found out she was my MTC comp, it felt right so I wonder if there is more I will be able to learn from her.

This past week was honestly pretty hard. I struggled a lot. Sorella Brown is a Sister Training Leader, and she had to spend a LOT of time planning in Rome. This last week, I spent one day is Ostia. And the rest I was stuck in a room doing nothing. However, Sorella Brown is lovely and makes up for it. She honestly is so amazing. I'm so so lucky she is my companion. I love her to pieces. I will let you know how everything goes next week. OH AND I JUST SAW THE CHAFFINS AND GOT THE PACKAGE THANK YOU. I love you all lots. Pray for my Italian! Also I got my eyebrows threaded so that's what the photo is.

LOVE YOU ALL ❤️❤️❤️SORELLA THORUP